Boat Patience

'If stars shouldn't shine
by the first time
Then dear it's fine, so fine by me
'Cause we can give it time
So much time with me.'

There's never a promise of tomorrow, let alone the big future to come.

And who really know where the voyages of life will take us.
Sometimes I'm a huge steamer in the middle of the sea, stagnant.
And other times a tiny wooden boat on the brink of wreckage
A lot of time is spent in a boatshed putting planks of wood together
in the hope of being able to get just a little bit further this time
Beyond the limitations we felt in the last few days, months, years
Burning the remnants of yesterday's me
in an effort to become something stronger, more hardy,
Maybe even beautiful
With the capacity to hold more lives, to shelter more people
to ferry all my loved ones to the safety of the next sea-shore

And then back once more to the boathouse I'll go,
rebuild again, to accomodate
more passengers, or less.

I'm a boat.

I kind of like this idea, maybe something worth refining.

But the point of this post, really, was to talk about patience and all the reasons why it's important and difficult and beautiful. I suspect I'm more impatient than I realise. But nothing gets me more than patience. To the point where another person's display of patience towards me is enough for me to throw away my hesitance and inhibition and jump. It's a secret weapon against me (that's now, no longer a secret).

If you wait for me, I won't even want to wait anymore. I'll run towards you.

If you kind of understand me (at least the fraction that I myself understand) then, well, that's more than I can say for most.

But there's always a question of time with patience, isn't there. How long can you be patient for? Life is limited... how long are you willing to wait? How long before the injustice of incorrect perception of falsity creeps under your skin and makes you explode. Do you realise you are patient, or is it just ignorance?

Sometimes you need to let go and jump. Your boat's built, and it's time to test the waters.