It's true. 'Purging' is not the most attractive word. In fact, on a scale of 1-10 in word attractiveness, taking into consideration that it often refers to bulimia, or emptying the bowels I'd probably only give it a 2.
That said, to purge; rid of guilt, sin, defilement and impurities is an important thing. Whether that be your own self-destructive thoughts, desires borne of anger, anger in itself, ego, unwarranted sadness, confusion, mistakes, bad memories/influences or even negative people. It is a difficult thing to decide to do. But it must be done.
And so, as of now I am on the road to getting rid of the following (some more serious than others):
-White bread- because I've eaten wholemeal for 2 months now. It's not so bad.
-Late night snacking
-Behaviours cultivated from the influence of people in my past
-Mess. I'm a messy person. It's not a good thing!
-Old anger. Mostly because the cause for this is unlikely to change, and thus, unworthy of my time
-Negativity. Because really, it's crippling and useless. Which is not to say I will become one of those annoyingly optimistic people who fail to see the reality of their lives.
-Self doubt. I'm slowly realising my intuition isn't too inaccurate... gut feelings are completely legit.
- This locket of unhappiness hanging around my neck. It's not even my own unhappiness. I fear to be unhappy, because this locket is on the brink of becoming an anchor. Got to keep my head above water.
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