Once again, I leave my grave!

MY HEAD IS BUZZING!

In the best possible way.
Something hit me.
Again, in the best possible way.

I've turned into a little jitter-bug :) OH THE INFLUX OF INFORMATION AND IDEAS!

Right, let's begin at the beginning.
1. Today I went for a swim. I wonder why I ever stopped?

2. Beautiful women exist. I mean, to the centre of their core beautiful. And smart and funny. And not virtuous queens. Purity is a state of mind.

3. My mum is a woman, with all the trials women have, with all the frustrations of any human being, the impatience, the sadness, loss, fears and hopes. I think we forget that our parents are human beings, unsure just like us. My mum is wonderful.

4. Sometimes, we're all so insecure and afraid, we suck. And we're mean and moody and awful. But as long as that's only sometimes and we always apologise, it's ok.

5. Somewhere along the way I found these wonderful men who have become additional brothers to me. My own brother is wonderful and his own person. Then there's thambi, who saved my life, spends time with me, talks about his dreams and fears, provides me with the world's best chocolate cake and keeps asking for a shout-out :P And there's my musical friend who is a pillar of strength and reason to me, who has allowed me to cry over the phone, who checks up on me, who motivates me, and is the best older brother I could ask for.

6. Those friends I grew up with, who watched me blossom, and giggle when I make sex jokes and STILL think I'm the smartest thing. Your faith in me is beautifully naive :P But really, you keep me going like nobody else.

7. My horoscope says lots of things that I'm not sure I believe in. It says I am prone to nervous breakdowns. This makes me laugh then worry. Which of course, serves only to make me laugh again.

8. I'm building my dream house, in my head. With a treehouse. Pinterest is amazing!

9. Decide ONCE AND FOR ALL to have an EXTRAORDINARY LIFE.

10. I watched 'Julia and Julia.' Their husbands love them so much. I think that's why I'm stupidly happy, at the core of it. Their husbands LOVED THEM. They fought and went through difficult things and THEY STILL LOVED EACH OTHER. Their husbands respected them, nurtured them, believed in them and gave them Time and Patience. They FOUGHT for them. I know I'm modern, a feminist, hell-bent on being an independant and self-made woman. But goddamit, a woman needs a man who can fight for her, tooth and nail, who'll make her feel safe even though she's perfectly capable of battling on her own. A woman needs, sometimes. And that's perfectly fine.


And this just in:
All men dream, but unequally. Those that dream at night in the dusty recesses of their minds awake the next day to find that their dreams were just vanity. But those who dream during the day with their eyes wide open are dangerous men; they act out their dreams to make them reality- Lawrence, Thomas E.