Far

It's a bit ridiculous when you feel a certain way and something falls into your lap and lets you explain everything that you couldn't, gives you words and phrases with which you can then articulate all the things that hang out in your own mind.

It's been a weird 24 hours.I was pretty close to calling it quits and spending the rest of the evening beneath the covers until I could forget all the things I have to do and all the things I do not understand, all the things I need to be.

And then arrives Regina Spektor- Far.

And she pulls me into troughs, into depths I didn't know I had and then pushes me back into the sunlight and tells me to smile. I remember there are things that I forgot. And I remember there are people willing to listen to me if I ask them to. An amazing kind of love.

So here it is. Utmost respect to people who can express the things I cannot. Add in an amazing voice and musical prowess and you have a potent person. I would like to be a potent person.

So we made the hard desicion, and we each made an incision...
Saw our hearts were little stones...
so we beat them up until they sparked.

you spent half your life trying to fall behind,
your ears in your headphones, to drown out your mind
it was so easy and the words so sweet
you can't remember, you try to move your feet

the boys and girls watch each other eat
when they really just wanna watch each other sleep

hold in your breath, till you thought it through you fool

dont let me out of this kiss
dont let me say what i say
the things that scare us today
what if they happen someday

you thought by now you'd be
so much better than you are
you thought by now they'd see
that you have come so far.

I wish I could have written it first. I really wish I could have.